Being in My Twenties

I grew up with my mother always telling me to work hard for what I want in my life, and to never stop reaching for my dreams. As a child it seemed easier said than done. I didn't think that being an adult would be this much harder, then again, I was a child. 

The past few months made me realize how significant my dreams are, and how much I could relate to my mom's words of wisdom. 

Being in my twenties must the most challenging years I will ever face, and I have yet to reach the 'hard' parts of being an adult. At this age comes with much confusion, worries/anxieties, conflicts of interest, judgement from others, and many more I could think of. 

I became confused of my future, and how I want to get to where I want to be. Confused about what paths to take, and whether or not certain decisions will affect the outcome. I worry everyday of trying to make my parents proud of me, even when I think I haven't accomplished anything with my life so far. I have conflicts of whom in my life will make me stronger, and what friendships are beneficial or not to my growth. As well as being anxious of what others might think of the choices I make in my life. 

I am not going to lie about what I have mentioned above bothers me, because other people will most likely have the same personal issues. These are issues I am still afraid to admit to others. It is easier to type it out that say it out loud. I may worry about what other people may think about me, and what friendships I should rid of and not, but like I said, it's easier said than done, right? I think many people struggle with the same issues, and we shouldn't look down upon people who do have these thoughts. We're all human. We all have feelings. We all get hurt. And that's okay!

Being in my early twenties, I have dealt with mentally challenging thoughts that will break me down, and tear up my goals I have for myself. As long as I keep standing back up again, I know that my negativeness will never control what, and who I want to become. 

There are many things I want to do with my life, and so little time to achieve all those things. I just have to always remember, I am only in my twenties, and I have the rest of my life to accomplish my dreams. 

For those people who have lost their way, or feels like they are not achieving anything, just remember: You will get there. It doesn't matter how long it takes to follow your goals. What matters is the journey you take that will drive you to your dreams. Dream big, and your journey will be the best accomplishment you will make. 

Tweet This

Being surrounded by social media used to be an important value in my life. I was on strung to several websites, and I always stayed on top of the new.

From Xanga, Friendster, MySpace, Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, Snapchat, and many many more. It was my life.

All throughout middle school and high school I always had to sneak onto my computer when my mom went to bed ( I grew up with highly strict parents who never let me stay up).

Nonetheless, I was addicted.

Soon, everything on social media was important to me. I was worried about getting every comment on MySpace, who  liked my pictures on Facebook, and whether or not my Tumblarity was increased.

Chatting with my friends on Meebo was my favorite in high school. I would talk about people I didn't like to my friends and gossip about every single details I knew.

I think about that past me. I think about how addicted I was, and how even more addicted I am now. I see other people's tweet, and automatically assume it's a subtweet about me. Or I will see an Instagram post of my so called friends hanging out with me.

I have been significantly attached to social media that I let it control me up to the point where I am constantly checking for new notifications.

Where has my dignity come to?

Why is it that in our generation today, we have become so obsessed with not only our technology- but with social media. We've become glued to the idea of having "friends" online that we forget the impact of face-to-face relationships. We've become insane trying to figure out who that 'tweet' is about, we lose friendships over silly ideas and concepts. We've become idiots who strive for more likes on instagram rather than striving for success in real life. We have lost compassion for others because we judge them based on their posts, tweets, or pictures on social media. Social Media is a platform for individuals to come together, but it turns them against each other.

Our goals for more likes, retweets, and/or followers is becoming more important than real life relationships.

And that's a shame.

Sleepless Nights | Late Night Thoughts

Sleepless nights always end up lasting for the longest time. The worries of tomorrow, or the experiences of today- these are the thoughts that keep you up late at night.. well for me at least.

There hasn't been a time within the last month where I had fallen asleep before 12AM. Look at me now; I am up at 2AM in the morning writing a blog post.

But why?

Why do I do this to myself with the sleepless nights?

That is because I can't help it. You are more than welcome to agree with me those who has similar situations. I don't know if it is insomnia, or whatever medical term people want to call it. I just can't sleep at night, and it affects me during the day.

Let me tell you about myself on most days. I am a very worried and paranoid person. If something is wrong, or doesn't go as expected, you will see me trying to calm myself from anxiety.

I have been getting anxiety for the past couple of months. I have never had anxiety before in my life. I don't know what has changed in my life for me to receive these moments. But I do know that my sleeping patterns and my anxiety have been clashing among each other.

Here's to another sleepless night.

Reminders to Self

There will always be those days where you feel unmotivated, and depressed. Everyone goes through those days. But what you must remind yourself to do, is to pick yourself back up again. Try to stand up to get out of that "funk" you are in.

Remind yourself to be happy. Constantly going through the day trying to be happy will allow yourself to see that you have a good life, and that you are truly happy.

Remind yourself that you have better days ahead of you. You may have had a bad day today, but tomorrow will be better. Have a good night's sleep, and you will wake up in the morning, reminding yourself that today will be a great day.

Remind yourself to eat and drink healthy. A balanced meal in your life will show you how precious your life is, and you will be feeling fresh and new. Healthy eating habits will bring joy into you knowing that you are eating better for yourself and for your body.

Remind yourself that you have many loved ones around you. It doesn't matter how many people you have standing by your side. What matters the most is that you have some awesome people who have your back and willing to be there for you.

Remind yourself that no one else can make you happy but yourself. It takes strength and courage to tell yourself that you are not happy and you are depressed. But the first step to a happy lifestyle, is standing up to yourself. Accept yourself. Make change in your routines. Do things that will make you happy. The little things in your day will add up and it will take some time. It doesn't mean that you should give up on yourself, this just means that you are making a journey. You will make a journey to your happiness. Just give yourself some time, and give yourself some change to your life.

These are just some reminders I tell myself when I'm feeling down and depressed. Hopefully it helps you think about the choices you've made in your life, and how you can make yourself happy.

About

My name is Kc Francisco. 21. College Student. Beauty lover. Tech savy. Photography fanatic. Addicted to Youtube. 

I decided to create a blog to write all things beauty, technology, or the simple things about my life.

There was something quite scary about making a blog to write about my thoughts and so, but I wanted to give it a try and send a message to people. I faced my fears, and now I want to show people my blogging side.

I hope you all enjoy my blog, and wish me luck on the days to come (: